For years, I have always considered myself practical, dependable, hardworking, honest, intense, creative and open minded, to name a few. My self-description is fairly boring, it's all true, but I'm taking the time to look beyond that list. When you are on the spend-work-spend treadmill (as I have been for the last 20 years) you make the decision to wait. You box up and store your desires to sing cabaret or backpack through Europe. With that decision, you also stifle a part of who you are. Your adventurous side isn't priority, so it ends up on the shelf in your office. Your courage to move or change careers? It's buried in the basement. The question is - when do you open those boxes?
In the last 4 years, my family and I have moved 6 times, I opened a store and my husband started a new career. I have finally reached the recovery stage. I am sorting though boxes and bins - the "physical stuff" and the "life stuff" I have collected. I am finding all sorts of reminders of who I have been and who I have always planned to be, as well as who I am becoming.
I fully admit to running on that treadmill for the last 20 years.
I know that is not the way my next 20 years will go. I am using the process of unpacking the physical stuff to include unpacking the parts of me that I packed up too. I am discarding lots of things but reclaiming power, health and feelings. As it turns out, the "things" that I have decided to keep have a definite theme, one I am working on developing in my day-to day living. To me they all represent magic and whimsy, both concepts I boxed up a couple years ago (Too busy, no time for fun). To consciously building back the magic and fun one day at a time,
The picture above is the top of a dresser in my home.
If you're wondering about the "things" I've decided to keep:
The little gargoyle is named Dedo, allegedly hidden atop Notre Dame Cathedral (gift from my sister),
the painting is of Leeds Castle (watercolor on paper by my amazing Uncle Toby),
the handmade clay castle opens to allow candles to be set inside (all the windows light up!)
the salt lamp helps clean the air and gives off that warm fuzzy glow (also a gift from my sister)
and of course, a handmade wand with my initials in it (from a Renaissance Festival - lets just say I "encouraged" my girls to each get one too.)
Follow along as I figure out how to make this next 20 years my best yet! Who knows what I'll come up with. I am definitely working on adding a few more descriptors to who I am - healthy, strong, encouraging, adventurous, maybe a little crazy, but also a lot of fun. We're in for one heck of a ride!